thats-how-we-roll-in-the-shire:
what if we’re all characters in a book
WHAT IF WHEN YOU FORGET WHAT YOU WERE GOING TO SAY IT’S THE AUTHOR BACKSPACING
guys why isn’t everyone reblogging this it’s a scientific breakthrough
and when you’ve had a sense that you’ve been through a certain day or moment before, it’s cuz the author is re-writing the same part of the story, just with better context
(Source: getsby, via youshouldbestudyinglol)
When I was ten I had my first true thoughts of suicide
See way back then I had many nightmares of losing time
I felt betrayed by life, misunderstood by friends
Ashamed of by my mom, outcasted by the rest
So yes, I became an introvert
My shell was the only safe-haven that I had from getting hurt
And it kept getting worse, I started Middle School
And tumbled down a never-ending spiral full of ridicule
Kids can be really cruel, I’m surprised I learned shit
Up in that circus, I wondered if I deserved this?
All through High School, it remained the same
I started turning numb, succumbed to the um…pain
I would come home, mama always gon
Or even when she was sleep or on the phone
She’s always been good to me, and love is what she’s always showed me
But I was living lonely, like “man, don’t nobody know me”
Hardly ever spoke in school, and rarely when at home
Now if you did that for almost 7 years, you’d probably be cold
And socially awkward, That’s why I don’t be talkin
I feel like a feral child, fresh from out the coffin
I suffered from anxiety and depression on my own
Kept a smile on my face just so nobody would know
My obsession with death was just a reflection of stress
That had become so repressed that it had turned into mess
It had destroyed me like meth does to a young person’s flesh
It ate away my chest, attacked my heart like a pest
Three attempts… and a notebook full of poetry
That could prolly turn the coldest, meanest eyes into flowing streams
I see remnants of memories I wish I could forget
Me and my baggy jeans, sitting on the basement steps
Balling my eyes out…
Wondering if they would remember or if I was just a waste of breath…
I wished somebody would just come and…(*pops*) shoot me down
(nnnnn)
You think you know me, but you don’t know…how I got cold, how I got ghost
JESUS
I WAS NOT
HTE GIF FITS SO WELL IM FUFCKCING
holy crap this is the best thing since Bacon Pancakes in New York
I WAS NOT READY FOR THIS
(via queerboiswag)